This morning I woke up feeling so worried and sad that I cried while making the school lunches, careful that the boys didn't see me.
Max asked for the day off so I gave it to him. Rocco is counting down the minutes to his big birthday party tomorrow ... he wants a poo cake, so I'm thinking I'll go with some Cadbury Flakes and plenty of chocolate icing. "There needs to be a toilet too, mum."
(Seriously? What kind of kid wants a toilet on his cake?)
Then I watched this video diary that World Vision Australia put together of my time in Uganda.
Sometimes I panic and get so easily overwhelmed it can be very hard to talk myself down from my own ledge. Do you ever feel like you're not doing enough? Maybe us panic people should start a movement.
At first all I saw in this video was bad hair, crows feet, flabby arms, tired eyes. Then I watched it again and thought, maybe I'm just doing the best I can, and that's ok? I've met so many people from all walks of life during my trips with World Vision, and I have NO cause for complaint. I feel like us westerners have all gone completely mad, while the majority of people in developing countries are just trying to survive. And when I try and work out the meaning of existence of life on the planet it all overwhelms me so bad that my brain short-circuits and I eat chocolate, inappropriately.
If anyone needs me, I'll be on the couch drinking mochas and writing. Hopefully that's ok? Is that ok you guys?
Max asked for the day off so I gave it to him. Rocco is counting down the minutes to his big birthday party tomorrow ... he wants a poo cake, so I'm thinking I'll go with some Cadbury Flakes and plenty of chocolate icing. "There needs to be a toilet too, mum."
(Seriously? What kind of kid wants a toilet on his cake?)
Then I watched this video diary that World Vision Australia put together of my time in Uganda.
Sometimes I panic and get so easily overwhelmed it can be very hard to talk myself down from my own ledge. Do you ever feel like you're not doing enough? Maybe us panic people should start a movement.
At first all I saw in this video was bad hair, crows feet, flabby arms, tired eyes. Then I watched it again and thought, maybe I'm just doing the best I can, and that's ok? I've met so many people from all walks of life during my trips with World Vision, and I have NO cause for complaint. I feel like us westerners have all gone completely mad, while the majority of people in developing countries are just trying to survive. And when I try and work out the meaning of existence of life on the planet it all overwhelms me so bad that my brain short-circuits and I eat chocolate, inappropriately.
If anyone needs me, I'll be on the couch drinking mochas and writing. Hopefully that's ok? Is that ok you guys?
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