Angelina Jolie has a Latin tattoo: "Quod me nutrit me destruit." It means: "What nourishes me, destroys me."
I get it - I really get it. Sometimes, the thing that used to nourish you almost completely destroys you. Almost.
This plant is in between our house and garage. Every time I walk past it, I think, "That's me."
And I'd feel all serious, maybe even a bit pious. It's just so symbolic .... that plant wasn't growing very well at all until the pot blew over in a storm and cracked open. Now, the plant thrives in a broken pot.
For a few years I've watched the deep purple leaves grow and bloom. It really is magnificent. I thought that was the end of the story .... but it's not.
The other week, it suddenly dawned on me - I need to transplant the deep purple plant to a new, unbroken home. You can't grow in a broken pot forever. Sooner or later, you'll end up dead.
I can pat myself on the back all I like; that the things I used to do in the world I no longer do. I am responsible and free and a soccer mum goddamit. And still, sometimes, out of the blue comes a flash or a bolt or a pang of an insatiable need I thought was long gone.
So I bit the bullet and locked in the dates for some stupid intensive counselling. I need to get out of my stupid broken pot.