Apparently, when you are doing the crying-it-out-method with your twelve month old baby .... IT SUX. BAD.
Apparently, when you are doing said method and he has cried for two hours, then slept, then cried some more ... so finally you go in, to realise he has been crying from having a dirty nappy and the worst nappy rash of his life?? Yeah, also sux.
Apparently when you are changing said nappy at 3.15am and he doesn't even kick you, just lies there looking at you in gratitude that you are changing his nappy - his poor bum so sore and red - apparently you curse yourself a thousand curses.
I can't tell you how bad I've felt all day. And tired! It's like, a whole new level.
So, I did a pump class today and pumped SO HARD, that I'm at home right now breathless and fucked up, heart pumping so fast it's freaking me out. I'm either having a heart attack, or panic attack. This could be my last blog post. Dave didn't even take me seriously, just put the phone next to me in case I need to "call someone" then left.
I just googled "breathless after exercise" and came back with "pulmonary embolism". Why is Dr Google always so serious with the diagnosis?
If this IS my last blog post, tell Dave that next time his wife says she's having a heart attack ... HIS WIFE IS HAVING A HEART ATTACK.
Goodbye. Love deeply. Eat more chocolate.